The Ethan I Was Before (2017)

STANDISH, Ali


  • Moral assessment: (L-B1) Some moral difficulties
  • Public: Generic

This book is about Ethan Truitt, a 12 year old Boston born and raised boy who is grieving for his best friend from birth Kacey Reid, a talented, athletic girl. Ethan’s parents Dave and Laura move to their family to her very small hometown of Palm Knot ("Jewel of the South") on the Georgian Atlantic sea coast. There Ethan is immediately befriended by Suzanne, daughter of Ethan’s mother’s schoolmate. Suzanne is the most popular girl in the class, but a bully and archenemy of Coralee, who turns out to be a faithful friend to Ethan. The book is well written, at times even gripping. Only little by little (in 75 short chapters) does it reveal what happened to Kacey, to Ethan, to Coralee and her mother, to Ethan’s mother and her father, and to other inhabitants of Palm Knot, who seem shadowy to the newcomer. It is written in first person, with frequent lists of so far known facts, compiled by Ethan to help him try to understand the situation. The fundamental moral of the story appears to be one of humaneness with self and others: of not rashly judging others, nor especially yourself, of learning to overcome fear and guilt, of the value of friendship (“One true friend is worth a hundred false friends.”) and of overcoming grief. Reading between the lines (or recognizing the subtext) one discovers a message that young people need to speak in confidence with someone who can help them distinguish their imagined impression from reality, someone who can encourage them to dare to put words their innermost feelings. At the end the reader will find a moral dilemma regarding medical care on the end of life. Even if it is possible that the solution taken could be morally acceptable -based in the distinction between ordinary and extraordinary means of mantaining life-, it seems that it is motivated only in sentimental grounds. The book also lacks of references to spiritual realities, wich would be reasonable to find in a narration that faces quite fundamental events regardinf human existence. J.F. (Australia, 2017)

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